lOveLifeOx

I haven't been on deviant in a long time, but I've become active on the site again. Next week I leave for a week long tour of Europe, and I'll have plenty of shots to upload when I come back hopefully. I'm very excited to start this adventure.

It's Sunday morning, and it's raining. I havnt written a journal on here in over two months and alot has happend in the mean time. In March i found out, the man i thought was my father for 17 years, actually isnt my father, I'm half english, my sister is actually my half sister, and i have two half brothers that dont know i exist. I went to see The Maine in March aswel and I have to say, it was possibly the best night of my life. Ive never felt like i was meant to be anywhere as much as that in my life. It was amazing. <3 Ive got lots of plans for the Summer, and despite things that have gone on recently, Ive never felt more alive. Im s

Do you ever wonder why we are the people we are? Why was I born into my family? Why do i look the way i do? Why do I feel the way I do? Is it all just chance, and you could be anybody? Or is there a reason? Was it meant to be this way? I often ask why couldnt i be somebody else? I know i should be happy for what i have and just enjoy life and sometimes i do feel unbelievable grateful for my life. But I cant help wishing i had been born somebody else at times too. I feel like I'm stuck in a rut and I'm never going to be anybody worthwhile, I'm never going to achieve what i want. I'm destined for a life of lonliness and nothingness. Always se